advanced feelings
words are ill fitting masks for ill defined feelings. my feelings are very advanced. they are full of irony and contradiction and nuance, appreciation mixed with whimsy. trust me— i listen to music and i understand it all. as soon as i figure out how to plug in my feelings to the page, let me tell you: it's over. i will rise to the ranks of the greats. i will singlehandedly lift my family to glory. stories are non-linear, didn't you know? that means i can survive all this horror by turning it into a story. as long as i'm honest, i can pay the bills and feel good at the same time. try to hurt me. you can't hurt me, alone with my trusty dog. even he runs away sometimes when he needs his own freedom. words couldn't explain, you wouldn't understand. that would take time and no one has the time. it's just too complicated.